Mixed Feelings

So I was in a very good mood all day and was hoping to pen my thoughts about my mystery man “K”. But some people can just ruin it for you. Yeah ok, I see now your focusing on “K” and no you’re guessing wrong, if you feel you know him. At the moment he’s non existent, if i could re-phrase, he’s just the man of my dreams. Fiction OK, it’s very cliched  to dream about someone, just like how most girls have their knights in shining amour blah blah blah…… Sorry to disappoint you but I’m not so fancy. But yeah I do have a name for him.

So if at anytime I mention things about him, “NOTE THAT ANY RESEMBLANCE IS PURELY COINCIDENTAL” (of course it should be otherwise how would I know I have found him, Silly me).

So what now…….

Since I had a small chat with my ex-boyfrnd today ( who unfortunately ruined it for me, Not really his mistake. I just don’t get him anymore. He just finds a way to get back at me. I hope he stops doing that. Revenge was always his tactic lol.)

Hmmm not a good idea to write about him here. Bcoz I know he’ll come across it and the same old boring story will continue once again. He’ll blame me, I’ll blame him. Passing the buck around. Sometimes I want this all to be over. Not wanting to have anything to do with him anymore. All this while I kept in touch only because I know for a fact, he’s a nice guy and we have had too much of a history to just write him off from my life. But I feel I should, once and for all. And now that he’s made a revelation to me Hmmm… He said he’s in Love (lol, No offence) But just that what does he know about love??  huh (tease, tease) And poor guy, he’s upset that the girl just likes him as a friend. Age old question “For Love or for Friendship???” Any thoughts?  Well, If you ask me. I say it depends if you’ll are just casual friends then its ok go ahead spill your heart,there’s nothing to lose. But then if you’ll are really close friends you have to weigh your options. You might decide to give it a shot but what if it doesnt work out, wont that affect your comfort level. ( Of course it will) And I feel it’s always best to keep it secret with friends because the whole process is intense and it gives you an amazing rush which unlike in a relationship fades away. The feeling of not knowing what to expect next is just undenialbly sexy. Ohhhhhkkkk Hmmm… Control your emotions now.

So where was I, Oh ya for love or friendship ???? Hmm wateva works for you. And I say again, With close friends it’s RISKY. But I have also heard friends make better Lovers. ( Oh and for Inside view, “K” has been my best friend till now, we still haven’t taken it to the next level, considering my 4 yrs of insane day dreaming about him. It’s pretty sad but I know eventually something will happen)

Sorry I couldn’t write about him today even though I so wanted to.  But hey, I wont keep you waiting for too long. Bye for now

PS: I dont like calling him “K”. I’m gonna have to work on calling him something better because I don’t wish to give out his name.  Secret shuuussh…. Hmmmmm……..